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Jennifer Lash, Blood Ties, 1997
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Death of Birkin
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Death
of Birkin: If Violet and Cecil
Farr ever thought of their son in England, it was never made
apparent to anyone, least of all to each other. Life went on the
same: produce for the Claggan market, farm decisions, upkeep,
maintenance, local committees, local decisions, Cecil had developed
problems of wind and acid stomach, and as his gums shrunk his
ill-fitting dentures became an increasing liability. Birkin was
dead. Violet found him on the south side of Mount Murna, still, yet
with his black coat still soft from dew, little beads of bright
water glistened on the stark lengths of hair; the stomach was
distended, the eyes were open, but glazed, opaque, utterly empty of
Birkin, and yet there was in their very emptiness some kind of
reference to the great, lost spirit of his loyal being. The huge
head was dropped down into a little dish of ground, just as it might
have lain in Violet’s lap. She did not weep. Sorrow such as this had
no external means of expression in the battened down, fierce
fortress of meshed, banished feelings that was the resolute, guarded
structure of herself. She simply stayed there with him until well
after dark. She stayed until the cold wind and heavy dew gave her
some intensity of bodily feeling; sufficient discomfort, stillness
and bitter cold for her to know this death, this cruel desertion,
deep inside herself. She stayed and stared until the dark made the
mound-shape of the dog simply a shadow at her feet similar to the
outcrop rock and other smooth side of stone on the mountain. Without
Birkin, Violet was deserted; she was truly alone. But for the rest
of her life, she would see him, hear him, smell him. There was no
path, no root, no open space of ground where she did not remember
his boundless loyalty and eager pleasure, she saw his dark shape
under the piano in the library, at the end of her bed, and by the
fire in the parlour.
Donal dug a grave for Birkin at the edge of the wood, high above the
house, and together Donal and Violet wrapped him in fresh sacks from
the red barn and then they laid him carefully into the moist earth.
Later Violet had a headstone carved from a rough slab of stone that
was found in the rubble, from one of the fallen cottages on the
estate. It simply said BIRKIN and then the dates. Violet did not
want any known quotation, that might suggest to other people, at
another time, that they might know and understand her sorrow and her
relationship to this particular animal. It was not simply a great
dog beloved by his mistress. It was more than that, it was passion
and trust;
it was an alchemy of need, animal trust and human frailty made whole
in a single, celebratory strength.
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