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Carson McCullers,
Clock
Without Hands, 1960
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Death of J.T. Malone
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Death of J. T. Malone:
Chapter One — Paragraph One:
Death
is always the same, but each man dies in his own way. For J. T.
Malone it began in such a simple ordinary way that for a time he
confused the end of life with the beginning of a new season. The
winter of his fortieth year was an unusually cold one for the
Southern town — with icy, pastel days and radiant nights. The spring
came violently in middle March in that year of 1953, and Malone was
lazy and peaked during those days of early blossoms and windy skies.
He was a pharmacist and, diagnosing spring fever, he prescribed for
himself a liver and iron tonic. Although he tired easily, he kept to
his usual routine: He walked to work and his pharmacy was one of the
first businesses open on the main street and he closed the store at
six. He had dinner at the restaurant downtown and supper at home
with his family. But his appetite was finicky and he lost weight
steadily. When he changed from his winter suit to a light spring
suit, the trousers hung in folds on his tall, wasted frame. His
temples were shrunken so that the veins pulsed visibly when he
chewed or swallowed and his Adam’s apple struggled in his thin neck.
But Malone saw no reason for alarm: His spring fever was unusually
severe and he added to his tonic the old-fashioned course of sulphur
and molasses — for when all was said and done the old remedies were
the best. The thought must have solaced him for soon he felt a
little better and started his annual spring garden. Then one day as
he was compounding a prescription he swayed and fainted. He visited
the doctor after this and there followed some tests at the City
Hospital. Still he was not much worried; he had spring fever and the
weakness of that complaint, and on a warm day he had fainted — a
common, even natural thing. Malone had never considered his own
death except in some twilight, unreckoned future, or in terms of
life insurance. He was an ordinary, simple man and his own death was
a phenomenon.
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But his livingness was leaving him, and in dying,
living assumed order and a simplicity that Malone had never know
before. The pulse, the vigor were not there and not wanted. The
design alone emerged. What did it matter to him if the Supreme Court
was integrating schools? Nothing mattered to him. If Martha had
spread out all the Coca-Cola stocks on the foot of the bed and
counted them, he wouldn’t have lifted his head. But he did want
something, for he said: "I want some ice-cold water, without any
ice.
But before Martha could return with the water, slowly, gently,
without struggle or fear, life was removed from J. T. Malone. His
livingness was gone. And to Mrs. Malone who stood with the full
glass in her hand, it sounded like a sigh.
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